Book

Ready or Not . . .

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My new life as an unwed mother was just a hop, skip, and a jump – and a push – away.  It was to be any day now that I’d be experiencing what giving birth would actually be like, and what having the name ‘Mom’ would feel like. Was I ready? Do dogs meow? Of course not!  Having that feeling that God, family, and friends were right next to me was why I was the most ready I could be.  Continue reading “Ready or Not . . .”

Songs

Dear Younger Me – Song #15

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Are you ready to admit you fit into the older age category, having learned much from the many ups and downs in life that came your way. Or maybe you are not as old but, because of certain trials, you feel older than the number shows. We all wish we knew earlier in life things we know now.

Today’s song, as you will understand, is one I felt would be good to share. After all, I wish I could write a letter to the younger me.

I see now what I didn’t know then being I kept a journal since I was twelve years old. Those first ten years of my writing show me just how helpful it would have been to have actually gotten a letter from the 2018 Marianne Petersen in my early teen years. So much so that I did write me a letter a few years back, sharing it on my website. It was one of the most interesting letters I wrote to anyone.  click here to check it out. 

Is there anything you know now that you would have begged to have known way back then? What would it be? Would you dare try to write yourself a letter? It gets you thinking how little you actually knew when you were young, compared to how much you know now. You’ll find yourself wishing you really could have, way back then, gotten a letter from yourself.

Marianne Petersen’s book God and Your Pillow is now available. (Amazon) – You can follow Marianne on Twitter at @marimemoirs and read more on her blog, marimemoirs.com.

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– That ‘No WAY Do I Want to Forget’ Summer Conclusion –

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These last few blogs have sort of focused on a Me, Myself and I story.  Me, myself, and I Before (when my heart was empty), During (when questions were forming), and After (the outcome from Christ answering those questions).

God interrupted that emptiness and darkness of my life, giving me a new beginning. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. (Ezekiel 36:26) made sense! Why? Because that’s what took place.

I hope I haven’t come across as some young, weak, young teen who would take on anything that brought peace to my front door. Nope. Almost the opposite. I had goals, was one who went that extra mile, daring to do whatever. Looking back, I see I was a bit too proud in who I was. I was just empty of how to have peace along with all I could do.

But that week, biblical truths were opened up to me for the first time. I understood the true meaning of sin, of repentance, and I got to feel a true sense of grace, forgiveness, mercy and love. Yes, it was thirty-three years ago, but it still feels like yesterday. I never get tired of pondering on all that took place.

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Of course, sin was still hiding inside, but, with prayer, a new heart was formed to drown the sin with grace and forgiveness. Even when my ignorance and weakness were apparent, God guided me. Reading His word and learning much from the church I began attending did wonders.

My eyes still get a bit damp remembering how God held me even when I allowed sin to take over, causing my unplanned pregnancy, (1*) or when my brain-damaging illness occurred a few years later. (2*) The many ways He continually showed me ‘I love you’ were still strongly felt.

This is my first time in these thirty-four years that I’m sharing this for others to read. Why? To help people understand what it means to be ‘born again’ or, better wording, ‘born from above.’

Every Christian’s walk with God starts in different ways, at different times in life, but all show one thing: God planned it. He plans the best way to turn someones old-self into their new-self. He also plans what takes place afterwords for that person as well. A few dramatic events have caused me to learn much about how He is there at all times, giving me faith for tough times I’m assuming will still occur.  

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God has put me here, in this place and time, with my life experiences, in order to tell others about what He has done and is doing in my life. My book will be out, Lord willing, in a month or two in hopes He uses my story to help others, showing them God is there for others though one trial or another. 

 

Psalm 62:8 – Trust in Him at all times, you people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 – He has made everything beautiful in its time.      

As some of you know, I’m one who listens to Christian music. This song means more lately being I feel it fits with—as the song title shares—“My Story.” I guess you can say I’m one of those people at the end. 

 

I hope my story has either made you think ‘I know what that feels like!’ I sure know that feels.  And what about those who think ‘I kinda wish I knew what that feels like.’  Believe me, I know just what those thoughts are like as well. Feel free to pass a note and share your thoughts.

1* – Unplanned pregnancy story can be found.

2* – Brain affected illness

Marianne Petersen’s book God and Your Pillow is now available. (Amazon) – You can follow Marianne on Twitter at @marimemoirs and read more on her blog, marimemoirs.com.