Book-God and My Pillow

My Unfinished 4th of July Thought -Part 1

people outside at night watching fire works
Do you have a day you’ll never forget? Read about one of mine; the day that changed my entire life.

A fun-filled family & friends 4th of July. Say that ten times fast! It’s the topic that begins my book titled God and My Pillow.

4th of July, 34 years ago, was perfect when I was 19 years old. Or at least I thought it was going to be perfect. It was only a few days after I got back home to Washington. California was my temporary home to see what life may have had for me there, only to come back three months later. I had realized, as I stayed there with a friend, that it was best to be back home and continue college.

I sure was happier being back home, but above all, more-so relieved. And what better way to celebrate than being with family and friends having a blast, literally, with fireworks in our spacious driveway.

But something happened that I did not expect. One unfinished thought popped up that changed my life. But before I tell you that thought, let me share a bit from my book that describes what took place after this one thought popped up.

“Marianne, you want to light this firework?” I was occasionally asked.
“No, thanks. You guys are better at that. I’ll just sit here and watch,” while wishing I wasn’t thinking about what I was thinking about.
“Really? Are you sure?”
“Yes. Thanks, though.”
I’ll never forget that evening: sitting on a folding chair, watching everyone have fun while I faked a grin for the remainder of the night. Even though I was surrounded by dear family and friends, those thoughts I was having made me feel totally alone. I began to realize how even God-fearing Christians could mess up, being that I was, at age nineteen, one of them. An instantaneous new perspective on life began that night. Not the fun, firework-filled Fourth I had expected, that’s for sure.

greyscale photography of woman wearing long sleeved top

As you can see, I was far from having normal fun 4th of July firework thoughts that night.

Being that it’s been close to two years since I’ve shared bits and pieces of my story, and since my book has been available for a while now, I plan to pass along parts about my book once again. Why? To share what God guided me through that convinced me His plans are perfect.

Before I share that thought, I have a question. Can you think of one day you experienced that began a new life for you? I bet you can. If not, then just you wait because there’s something you need to keep in mind about that day. It’s something I hold strongly to I began learning that 4th of July; God knows what He’s doing.

Okay, Time I now share that one thought I had that changed everything.
That many days? Hmmmm. That couldn’t mean I might be preg…

to be continued.


Marianne’s book – God and My Pillow is through Amazon & Barnes & Noble.
Follow Marianne on Twitter at @mariannesmemoirs  and Facebook at @marimemoirs.

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