Being there’s been lots of graduations as of late, I thought I’d share what took place three years ago. Yep. The big 3-0 high school reunion for my class of 1985. (Stop right now. I’ll save you trouble and do the math for you. I’m 51.) It was sure a great time recognizing most of the faces anyway.
Before going, I looked at my older journal that holds all of my high school thoughts, reading my last writing I had written that school year.
May 14, 1985
“A quick update. I graduate from Highline High school in twenty-nine days. I’m Eighteen years old and no, life is not easier at eighteen. I have my own car, a Capri. Attend O.S.C. (Occupational Skills Center) for the Visual Communication class. Work for Doug Fox Travel driving people to and from the airport while also being a ball girl for the Seattle Mariners. I will be going next year to Highline Community College and…..”
Here. Let me stop. All sounds pretty great don’t ya think? Well… the next sentences alters that sound just a hair.
“…But I am more confused about the love life. …….I have spent the last week-end visiting my best friend and her dorm life at college. Now listen, love is confusing. As the song goes ‘I’m Hooked on a Feeling’ after meeting that one guy there. But I do come to see that I’m to the point where who ever shows any liking for me will win. UG! …I’m on my journey to understanding Christianity and what Jesus can do for me. With my two best friends being religious now, it’s all just kinda weird but I’m learning…… Is living with love important? Do I depend on finding love too much. God will reward me but when? I guess love does not come with a $145 prom dress or dreaming with a slow song. What’s the Answer? I shall write again. Maybe when my questions are answered.”
My next writing was 1 1/2 years later. You’ll get to see how my questions were answered.
January 2, 1987
“How to even begin explaining the past year and a half. The best way to explain is that I got the answer to my last journal-writing’s many questions – I am a new creature and will be rocking for Jesus for all eternity! My two best friends aren’t so ‘religious’. We are all Sisters-In-Christ now! Being Nineteen years old, I now can grab a hold of God and leave the world and my hunt for love behind.”
Yep – My hunt for love had ended because God showed me that the most important love I could ever find would be from Him. And even then, I didn’t have to hunt for that. He gave it to me. He chose me. He had me first feel what sin truly was. Man, did it feel heavy all of a sudden. I pleaded for forgiveness. He then had me feel that, hard to describe, that feeling of forgiveness. It felt like weight was lifted off. Man, did that feel good. #1
I wrote a lot more in that day’s writing, and I’m actually going to share the next paragraph of that journal next week. (Aren’t YOU curious.) This part was by far the most important life changing writing in any of my journals.
Having looked back, I realized three things.
1– Thirty-three years go by SO fast. – 2– God gave me the best answers I ever could have gotten to those questions I had at the end of my senior year, and… 3– How thankful I am to have those precious memories on paper.
What’s in your journal? I encourage all to keep one so you can look back onto those historical times that surpasses all understanding.
Romans 15:13 –
Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
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